I Honestly Hope;

I hope that someday, you find an amazing girl.
The kind of girl who means everything to you
& makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her.
The kind of girl who keeps you up at night,
just thinking about her beautiful smile,
& when you finally fall asleep, she`s all you dream about.
I hope she`s the first thing to cross your mind
when you wake up in the morning.
I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand,
yet you know it`s for the better.
I hope she`s the kind of girl you would die for.
The kind of girl who could make you cry,
even though you`d never admit it.
The kind of girl who makes you want to go out
& do something special, something that means everything to the both of you.
The kind of girl you can have silly fights with,
then kiss & make up & hold her in your arms
like you`re falling in love all over again.
I hope you make memories with her you never forget.
I hope she`s your world,
& what you have with her is nothing less than perfection.
& I hope that one day, you lose her.
I hope you mess up & as hard as you try
to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart.
I hope it destroys you,
because you realize you`ve lost the person you once called your everything.
I hope you see every moment you spent together
spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen.
I hope you stay up at night because she`s on your mind
& when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams.
I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind
like a scar that won`t fade away.
I hope you realize that you`re a new person because of her,
I hope your new self feels incomplete without her
& you miss the old you.
The one that was okay with being alone,
because you`d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken

To some this week up in one word I would say; hectic. As we get down to the last three weeks of school, it gets down to the wire, also known as, exams, studying, exams, studying, exams, and oh yeah did I say studying? Finally exams for all my classes are coming up soon and it’s the nervous anxious feeling you get when your cramming till five o’clock in the morning to study over every single paper that has been given that semester/year and thinking to yourself “when the flark did we learn how to simplify those kinds of problems?” “What the crap does schism mean? Let alone how to you say it?” and “was I asleep during this part of class?” it’s frustrating, and its an overwhelming feeling waiting for those test results to come back that you passed and earned that one credit in addition to the other five credits you need for your freshmen year (those including Algebra and English.) In the end, it all comes down to the fact that in less then three weeks, my freshmen year will be over. I will be moving on, and becoming a sophomore, it’s hard to believe, the year went by so fast it’s not even funny. Some moments went in fast past, and others in slow moments, some I wish I could forget completely, some I want to relive my whole life. I did things I never said I was going to do, and ended up having the time of my life, and growing up. I met awesome people at Richland Northeast, found a family when I needed it most, found people that would allow me to be moody and still love me in the end, support me in every decision, and take my hand and lead me to the right place. At the end of the year, a lot of my good friends will be leaving, weather they are seniors or moving away, it will be hard for them to leave me, because none of my years at RNE will ever measure up to what this one did, because of them. This year has been a rollercoaster ride, I’ve faced heartache, failure, success, and happiness, and honestly, I loved every minute of it. Anyway, we had our practice exam for algebra on Thursday and Friday, and I think I can say I passed I was on a roll, ha-ha. I went to exam tutoring on Wednesday for the real exam and got some good review time in. A guest speaker came in today (Friday) for AVID, she was a nurse, who graduated from RNE, and played basketball at USC (university of South Carolina), and she later attended a Midlands tech, her speech was amazing and changed a lot of my thoughts, and she actually helped me a lot with a future job career. Next week colorguard season is starting back up and I am so beyond excited, ill get back to ya’ll on that. (: 


Happy Mothers Day! (Favorite Post Secrets&Playlist List Eighteen Out Of Fifty Two)

Happy Mothers Day To All You Mammas Out There, Wether You Had A Child, A New Mother, An Expecting Mother, A Doggie Mother, A Cat Mother, A Mother To A Kid Down The Street Etc, Etc, You Still Count, So Happy Mothers Day, Hope Its Great!(:

This Weeks Playlist will be the Soundtrack to the Hannah Montana Moive, I recently went to see 
this moive with one of my good friends Raychel, and I couldn't tell you a thing about Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus except I knew she lived two double lives, but the movie was heat touching, and even made me a little bit teary eyed, I recomended it for anyone, no matter the age. (: 

1.) You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home By Hannah Montana
2.) Let's Get Crazy By Hannah Montana
3.) The Good Life By Hannah Montana
4.) Everything I Want By Steve Rushton
5.) Don't Walk Away By Miley Cyrus
6.) Howdown Throwdown By Miley Cyrus
7.) Dream By Miley Cyrus
8.) The Climb By Miley Cyrus
9.) Butterfly Fly Away By Miley Cyrus And Billy Ray Cyrus
10.) Backwords [Acoustic] By Rascal Flatts
11.) Back To Tennessee By Billy Ray Cyrus
12.) Crazier By Taylor Swift
13.) Bless The Broken Road [Acoustic] By Rascal Flatts
14.) Let's Do This By Hannah Montana
15.) Spotlight By Hannah Montana
16.) Game Over Steve Rushton
17.) What's Not To Like By Hannah Montana
18.) The Best Of Both Worlds: 2009 Movie Mix By Hannah Montana


Favorite Post Secrets: (List Seventeen Out Of Fifty Two)

*Sorry I Couldn't Post This Sunday, I've Been Studying For My EOCT And Exams Alot Lately. 



I am so sorry blogger world that I have forsaken you for so long. I know it saddens me to. I know I have missed like two post secrets and playlist, and to be quite honest, no I will not be making them up, but they will be up this week, as a matter of fact I will be posting the playlist after this blog entry. A lot has been going on since I last posted about my life, I recently got my interim grade and found that I'm not to happy with it, so lately I have been buckling down to get the best grade I know possible for algebra and global studies. I studied all night on Thursday night for both my global studies test and algebra test, and the test were pretty easy and I am hoping to see a great grade on both of them. I have been preparing for colorguard season that is set to rest in a couple of weeks and I actually can't be happier, I've missed colorguard, and best of all it counts as an late bird and will give me extra credits for this school year, even though I'm not really looking forward to band camp because I just planned on sleeping the whole summer, but I'm sure I will get over it. My home life hasn't been going so good but I will just have to deal with it, and you know those times where nobody and I mean nobody will leave you alone, well thats my home life, and its getting annoying. But other then that I guess I can say life has been going pretty good.
Playlist Seveteen Out Of Fifty Two:
Asher Roths CD Asleep In The Bread Asile
1.) Lark On My Go-Kart
2.) Blunt Cruisin'
3.) I Love College
4.) La Di Da
5.) She Don't Wanna Man
6.) Sour Patch Kids
7.) His Dream
8.) Fallin'
9.) Be By Myself
10.) As I Am
11.) Bad Day
12.) Lion's Roar