Top Ten Goals For January:

Number One: Give up all kinds of soda (diet or not) and instead drink more water.

Number Two: Do all my homework, and stop procrastinating.

Number Three: Have more patience with people, even when you
want to punch them in their eye.

Number Four: Try to get all B’s and/or A’s in all your classes.

Number Five: Listen more instead of talk.

Number Six: Give up junk food; this includes gummy worms, white chocolate
with blueberries, and such.

Number Seven: Say what is needed to be said instead of holding it in.

Number Eight: If I make a promise, keep it.

Number Nine: Actually keep up with my binder for AVID so that the night
before I’m not struggling to get everything done.

Number Ten: Trust in God more often.

The Best Women Always Comes Out On Top:

So tomorrow winter break officially ends, and I’m not ready to go back. Besides the fact that I have done NOTHING over the break, and will be spending countless hours arguing/talking to myself and getting all my work done and attempting to look normal for the public eye tomorrow I’m not readying to start all this drama back up. Yay, Story Time! As some of you may or may not know me and my boyfriend, Charles started dating on October 15, 2008. This chick, (we will call her Molly for now) liked Charles and I knew this, so before me and Charles started dating I went up to her and asked her point blank, “Is it okay if me and Charles date.” I told her to tell me the truth, and to not hold back. If Molly didn’t want me to go out with him, then I wouldn’t, and if she said it was fine, then I would. She told me that it would be okay if we dated, and I seriously sat there for thirty minutes asking her rapidity “Are you sure?” and again she gave me her word that everything would be okay. So sure enough a couple days after that Charles asked me out. At first everything was fine and dandy with me and him, and everything still is there is just one little problem, Molly. One day at lunch while I was with Charles walked up to her and attempted to hug her, she wouldn’t even look at me, no hug, and no nothing. Charles explained to me that she was a little pissed off that I and he are going out....UMMM HELLO?! Didn’t I just waste almost an hour of my life asking you if it was okay if we went out? Didn’t I put your feelings before mine and made sure it was okay with my FRIEND, and who is the one that lied straight to my face about it, along with a lot of other things? So, I got over it and thought to myself, let her be mad. I have done absolutely nothing wrong in this situation, and that’s that. Again, another couples of days later and at lunch (why does all this go down at lunch?) she walked up to me and attempting to give me her pathetic look she said “Shannon, I’m not mad at you I’m mad at Charles, and it has nothing to do with you it’s between him and me.” Well sweetie, when you’re mad at Charles because he is going out with me it has a major part to do with me. I said something (I really can’t remember what I said) and then walked away before I did something stupid. So everything seemed to die down, I’m not talking to molly because I honestly do not have time with all this bull crap. In physical science, (the class I do absolutely nothing in, yeah I know I need to work on that.) my good friend (we will call her, sparky) told me she needed to tell me something important. I told her to wait until I finished listening to Jason Mraz (because I was literally making babies with him) and to start a note and tell me. Blah blah, so she started one. She told me about how Molly in the morning before school started would literally attempt to be all over Charles and I mean ALL OVER not even a MARRIED couple would be all over each other the way she was attempting to be with Charles, and Charles would be like “Um, do you need a pill?” Oh, I was pissed. Psychical Science witnessed my wrath that day. Tears came flowing in the most unholy ways, I was crying because how could my FRIEND do that to me? How could she betray me in such a disgusting way? She called me “One of her good friends” well such a great friend you are. For the record, a good friend would not screw around with my boyfriend behind my back; I was honestly and truly disgusted by her actions. It doesn’t matter if you like Charles or not, have some flarking respect for me, him, and our relationship and get over it! By the time I calmed down and worked my way to the court yard to have lunch (again with the lunch thing) Charles had already heard about it, and we talked it out and everything became okay again and, once again I let it drop. Like a week after that happened Charles did something stupid and got put up for explosion and was away from school for about two months, (yes, he is an idiot, but I love that idiot so keep it to yourselves. Ha!) within those two months Molly called Charles and they talked a few, which was fine with me because I trusted Charles I just can’t trust Molly. If I don’t like someone, for whatever reason I have, I will tell them to their faces, and drop it. But, I can promise ya’ll this if I don’t like a person I would NEVER go behind their backs and talk bad about this, I would NEVER call them anything outside their name, and I would NEVER say anything to other people about them because quite frankly if I have something to say about you so help me God I will say it to your face. I’m just that kind of person; I have always been that kind of person. I have respect for people when I know for a fact they don’t have respect for me back. I’m not going to stoop down to their level, that’s just not me, nor will it ever be. So while this was all going on (and it still is, mer!) I never talked bad about Molly, or anything but as I knew was going to happen rumors got spread around that I was going to beat her up and such, and other people got involved in the drama, (it slightly amused me not going to lie) then after Charles handled it, it all drops. End of discussion but, I spoke to soon the last day of school before winter break one of my really good friends told me that she was telling people I was mad at her because my boyfriend liked her...hm, I’m smelling the sweat smell of denial. I have come to realize as I am telling you people my life story and pouring my feelings out to ya’ll that she CRAVES attention, like it’s a drug for her. Somehow inside my brain it’s not clicking how someone would put themselves out there like she has, just to get attention for a boy, and then when that boy isn’t given her the attention she wants she just does it harder the next time around. She has even recently tried to annoy me/ piss me off by commenting Charles’s pictures on myspace saying “One word Sexxyyy!” Charles hasn’t signed in so he isn’t aware of what she is trying to pull. It’s pathetic if you ask me, how could you not have respect for your reputation, for your body, and for your friends. Someone please answer that question for me, I seriously can not get it around my head. I’m asking for your advice, I want this crap to end; I want everyone to shut up put their big boy/girl panties on and get over it! I want an apology, even though I will never be able to be friends with her again because I don’t need people like her in my life right now. I want me and Charles relationship to be great without all this drama and I have already told Molly that I am not breaking up with Charles because I gave her the chance to tell me the truth and she didn’t, and it came back to bite her in the anus, And she claims that me and Charles staying together is fine with her. I'm trying to be the better person in this situation, and I think I have been doing good so far, but I'm about to snap. Some body anybody, give me advice. What am I suppose to do here, I can’t handle it anymore; it’s getting on my nerves. I am done I think, I apprentice it for everyone that comments this blog and give me advice and for actually reading all of this. I’m gonna spend the rest of the day completing my work, cleaning, and doing some stuff with myself before school.

-Love Ya’ll.